- this is not even the beginning , just so you know .

- this is not even the beginning , just so you know .

- this is not even the beginning , just so you know .

- this is not even the beginning , just so you know .

yes, i'm blogging. yes, finally.

It's a new year and serioulsy, it doesn't feel the same. We're still in the middle of a school term and everyday feels normal.

What i would remember about the last few days of 2007 was that i had an emotional ride, for which im not at liberty to blame anyone. it just happens.

However celebration was still fun as usual, with loved ones. ( zai and babe i knw i owe you guys a LOT )

and now im just here to tell you that im moving, like SERIOUSLY moving to LIVEJOURNAL. blogger is being such a pain .

will inform you of the new address.. maybe i will .

the crossroads are way behind me now , i've chosen a path.

Good Day.


love,
shara

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- this is not even the beginning , just so you know .

it's one of those moments where you just don't like the way the world keeps on revolving . hols will be over in 2 weeks time . im quitting tp ambassadors. yes, you read me right . ( pls don't ask me why . ) and next week everyone will be busy with the new school term except me . hmph . and i've got to prepare atleast 200 bucks for the books necessary ? gdness .


i want everything back to normal days . who am i kidding ! like thats ever going to happen . been a lazy ass this week . sorry ppl .


i made cheesecake and forgot to add EGGS . darn . who could do better at being a retardate than me !

anyways, i just got the news from roy that he got into the airforce and got his scholarship . im so happy i want to jump and cry ! of course all thanks to God , for answering our prayers . now im finally relieved . awesome day .

i miss justin . ):

Michael Buble - Lost

I can't believe it's over
I watched the whole thing fall
And I never saw the right man was on the wall
If I don't land
Days were slipping past
That the good things never last
That you were crying

Summer turned to winter
And the snow it turned to rain
And the rain turned into tears upon your face
I hardly recognized the girl you are today
And god I hope it's not too late
It's not too late

'Cause you are not alone
I'm always there with you
And we'll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
'Cause when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
When your worlds crashing down
And you can't bear to fall
I said, babe, you're not lost

Life can show no mercy
It can tear your soul apart
It can make you feel like you've gone crazy
But you're not
Things have seem to changed
There's one thing that's still the same
In my heart you have remained
And we can fly fly fly away

'Cause you are not alone
And I am there with you
And we'll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
'Cause when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
When the worlds crashing down
And you can not bear to crawl

I said, baby, you're not lost


love ya ,
shara*

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let's first address my holidays . it's been more than a month that i've been rotting at home . not taking into account the days i left my house for dinner with The People and the occasional cca 'thing' . the rest of the days are simply simple . i am still struggling with the company of both the guitar and organ . books have been playing a bigger part now . television ? i could memorise the programs for different days .

holidays aren't so great afterall . not for me i daresay . it leads me to massive thinking . massive guilt . massive confusion . massive uncertainty . for what ? of what ? about what ? i hoped i could ask you that . maybe i should start fasting too and regain my stability in life; spiritually, emotionally and physically too . aidah and dian , we need to go out real soon . wanna hear how things have been !!

lets set aside holidays . i am surely looking forward to the next semester . have to work extra extra harder and diligently to pull up my gpa . ( i think im gonna have sorethroat when i wake up next morning .. ) im letting go of business ambassadors . disturbingly . i feel so comfortable with them but i just can't commit . 29th will mark the end of my probation period in pacesetters. if i do not get in , then i'll be cca-less . i miss TP .

a little reminder to myself : pls call CPS . urgent .

can a woman die of over-fornication ?? initially if it had been rape then it would begin in pain . but more of the same thing that caused pain , could cause pleasure too . so could she die from over dosage of pleasure ?? the book got me started on this . i just can't help wondering . then why are full time prostitutes still alive ?? not that i want them buried six feet under . i understand their woes and their marketable skills .

i think john grisham it an awesome storyteller . im still in awe of the previous book i had read . wonderfully and spotlessly plotted . beautiful .

anyways . the mood pendulum has been incorporated in me recently . should be the holiday blues . or the weather ? of course it's not me . never . lols . maybe i just miss fathona . what'd ya say ? maybe . i think that'll be enough for today's post . all the best for my darlings with their promos and sub papers . my heartfelt wishes to all the september babies . and sorry im not always there .

p.s: i'm seriously thinking of closing the crossed roads in my life .
p.p.s: it means im planning to close this blog, you .. * insert fanciful name here *
p.p.ps: did you see timberlake's love stoned video ??? the way he just stares and looks so love stoned makes me go crazy... awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!

love,
shara*

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today was enjoyable i'd say .

hahahs. i just wanna think back and laugh to myself. all the dumb stuff we did and talked about . to my dearest 4e2 , though we are far apart now .. the times spent with you guys are sure to be tresured !! class dinner rocked ? lols. yups . just the table arrangement came in the way . chalet ? prolly' soon !



im soo tired right now ..



love,
shara*

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allowing myself to divulge in the darkness . i start wondering . it's been not too long . but the days from my last entry feels like eternity . will 2 days be enough just to know everything about her life ? she keeps on questioning herself about what she has gotten herself into untill she's confused about what is right and .. what is not . i sympathize with her completely . It's like deriving an answer by yourself without any assurance or clue that it is indeed right . Yes you made the wrong choice before and the majority pointed it out .What if this time, this choice was wrong but the majority also got it wrong ? and they just agreed along with that choice ?

scary aint it ? this is how the real world gonna be , scary .

if there are 3 judges and 1 innocent man . if 2 judges agree that the man is guilty although he is honestly promisingly innocent .. then how ? He'll be guilty then . The world is once again, scary . By the way, you might be that man .


Rules and Regulations;

1. Each player of this game starts of by giving 10 weird things about themselves.
2. People who gets tagged, needs to write in their blog of their own weird things as well as state the rules clearly.
3. At the end of the game, list 5 people to be tagged







and im done for now ..


shara*

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- this is not even the beginning , just so you know .

Hey All !

This is Shamini here . Just to let you know that there'll be an upcoming 4e2'o6 class outing ! Well, more like class dinner . Here are the details :

Venue: Seoul Garden @ Taka
Date: o5 September o7
Time : 6pm
Minimum amt to bring : atleast $30
Send in your comfirmation by : o1 September 07


Please pass the message and forward this mail to anyone i have missed out as i don't have everyone's email.

If you wish to bring up anything regarding this class dinner, do reply this mail or contact me .

Confirm via sms/email to :
Huzainie @ da_blackbeast@hotmail.com
or me @ cziley@hotmail.com


love,
shara*

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time passed so quickly . if only i could lay in your embrace .. and never had to leave .
love, are you here to stay for sure ??

***

i looked at the overall group marks and im very disapponited. i mean, why did they light those fake hopes in us when we were just going to get a B ? all that celebration for .. this ??? how could you say we did better than the group which got A last year and then give us a B ??? siighs. nevermind . can i cry ? i feel very very demotivated . very . can i .. change course ? or maybe .. stop school ? i am grateful that we aleast got a B .. but .. you just won't understand !

i wonder how dear mr group leader is . it's over and im glad we had fun doing the project work . grades can never perfectly reflect our hardwork ya . losing my hope over lsm though .. ms lim .. why ?! the only reason im studying for lsm is because i don't want to let you down .. ok. PERIOD time to move on .

today ( i mean friday ), was .. a beautiful day . thanks to tommie, donuts and love ? hahas . no thanks to long waiting time and the hot/humid weather . IF ONLY I HAD NO EXAMS ! eurgh .

i refuse to eleborate, sorry . lazy. and it's 5 mins to 2am once again . gdness .

and he sings.. " im sorry i took so long .. " .
now it's my turn, " im sorry im taking even longer . " .

love,
shara*

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the mugging is really making me go bonkers.



today was well, good in a way . studied until i forgot to have lunch and dinner .. and i didn't feel hungry at all . just worried for econs . i hope all this would pay off next week and then i have all the time for all my loves ~! can't wait !!

it's 2am right now . I just can't get to sleep . the last phone call , well im still thinking about it . thinking about what is stopping me from being myself . maybe it's just the mugging and stress .

dearest exams, dearest week, please tide over as soon as you can !! do you know because of you, i've hurt a few hearts this week alone ??

it's playing on the radio right now .. just nice at 2am .
Trademark - Only Love Lyrics

- this is not even the beginning , just so you know .

- this is not even the beginning , just so you know .

inspiration doesn't struck me as well in blogger as it used to when i was using at livejournal.

here's a kudos to inspiration. i think i write way better at LJ.










( actually, i wanted to write something mushy, but i keep thinking of ending it in a horrific way . goodness, should be aidah's influence ! )

boring .. im falling asleep . LOL. it's for you to finish up. im just lazy to think . writer's block . inspiration.. come back to me and never leave me pls ?


love,
me

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- this is not even the beginning , just so you know .

Im broke. rahhs~!! mr friend lvl 2, pls bring me out on an all paid dinner date + shopping .
im penniless (literally , lols ! =x )

love,
shara*

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- this is not even the beginning , just so you know .

I've got exactly SEVEN MINUTES to write this post .


lols. so here it goes ,

saturday was AWESOME, just so you know . things didn't turn out the way we expected it to be but you being there ... made me overlook the unhappiness . i had a good time , hope you did too .

sunday was realisation day and thanks niti gal for listening to my tears over the phone and zai for .. reassurring me . love love ya'll .

didn't go to school today cause monday blues' were overwhelming me thanks to sunday . HAIYOS . apologies to my dearest groups ~! i know i shouldn't take advantage of all-lecture day like that . sorries ~! chilled at nithya's hse and .. ya . like that

i was so emo on sunday i just let it all out in a poem, but not gonna post it here as .. then you'll know too much about me . LOL . i gotta pull myself together and chiong ! exams coming soon . project presentations finishing soon ! LORD ! continue staying by my side pretty pls ? i need Your love to keep on pushing me !!

okays . it's 12AM already .. love ya'll . miss ya'll and .. life is oh-so-awesome !

ps: i GOT into Business Ambassadors too ! LOLS. cham arhs !


love,
shara*

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She must have given up and resorted to prayers
May you be blessed.

lols. LOLS. i love laughing at myself . random pic taken by mr dear grp leader !

shara*

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- this is not even the beginning , just so you know .

roii called me yesterday after he booked out of camp . and then the first thing he asked, " Sham, movie, tea or me ?" wth !!! and then he repeated the question again . i didn't answer anyways . i just told him no movie cause i was watching potter with jas and co. !

so yesterday , celebrated steffi's bdae ! do you know how much me and jas struggled to hide from her, the cake, when they were entering the cinema ?? we were practically on the floor, dunking so that she won't see us ! ouhs, and we bought a tigger cake for her ! so fated, confirm God's blessings. and special thanks to (yishun) GV's cinema mgt for letting us celebrate her bdae at the foyer !

sorry steffi we couldn't smash it on you cause the manager would come after us .

the movie was alright . ron was cool, hermione was pretty , daniel was the same ? and rickman was hot , felton was ohmygosh . =x sirius black was handsome .

then walked home with chew chew and took cab back . chewchew, happy belated and i miss yer dude !


ouhs. project meetings in sch was such fun ! we started off with sex talks. LOLS. yes, you heard me alright . im so lazy to repeat what happened, so here's an extract from aidah's blog :



yeahs, so there you go . it just so happens that for every meeting we have, we'll end up laughing and laughing and laughing ? can't accept the fact that we have to change class every sem ! well, the telephone assesment thing was alright . Ms Ng was so cute acting as a 5 yr old kid . pregnant ladies tend to have mood swings too, can see by the different types of characters she came up with . mine was about some 40 yr old woman wanting a divorce . and she started complaining to me about men , and how yr husband still want to play ard with girls when he's so old already. LOLS. ms ng arhs .. haiyos . our care person moreover ! but thk God we didn't get Mr J . i think i would have kept silent hearing him over the phone . and imagine how HE would criticize us if we did a mistake ! thk God for ms Ng , i sympathize with o5 still, with Mr J being your examiner, how could you NOT panic ????????????? ( it's worse when you admire him, you'll stammer like never before . )


im off my loves.

shara*

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